Let’s continue with this exercise.
You’ve been noticing EXTERNAL sensations and ideas and you have begun to notice that these seem to come to you from something other than your inner self. You observe a separateness – there are thoughts and there is the one who is experiencing the thoughts.
Now, let’s go deeper.
Relax and notice – Which of the thoughts reference you? Which thoughts are about you? Your concerns, your desires, your attitudes, your expectations, your JUDGEMENTS.
Notice what fills your mind – often. What attracts your attention? What preconceptions of yourself dominate your attention?
Maybe you ask –
What should I do?
What CAN I do?
What am I allowed to do? What am I allowed to think? What do I allow myself to think?
Do you notice RIGHT thoughts? Do you notice WRONG thoughts? Who decides?
Can they all just be simply thoughts, even when they are about you? Can some be good and others bad?
What thoughts influence the way you see yourself?
You tell yourself: thoughts are just thoughts. Do you believe this? Do you embrace some and want to shove others aside? Are there thoughts you wish you didn’t have?
Who is the judge?
Notice: the one judging and the one judged – are they not the same?
Notice the contents of the mind – all the things that fill your attention.
Experience yourself, again, as an observer. Especially, an observer of the spontaneous thoughts that seem to just appear out of nowhere – by themselves – without cause – without purpose – without intention.
See these thoughts for what they are: brief fragments, flickering images – things that will just disappear unless you allow them to linger and grow into longer chains, grow into brooding, memories, fantasies …
For now, you might as well learn to just accept the stuff that is filling up you attention. It’s just stuff.
Let all the contradictions surface as they are – not sorted into good or bad – acceptable or unacceptable. Notice all of it, just as it is, all equal. Just be an observer. Free your mind. Let yourself let go of tensions and apprehensions, of judgements and evaluations.
Just experience it.
Keep from turning inward – don’t search for anything. Just sit quietly and notice what comes. Thoughts are just thoughts, sensations are just sensations, opinions are just opinions …
Yet, some things seem to appear from a deeper source. Some strike you, as if physically, and resonate and vibrate from your heart, your mind, your spirit – your very inner self.
These thoughts are few and rare – relax and allow them to warm you. And if such do not appear to you, that is perfect, as well. Whatever comes, relax and content yourself with experiencing it happening.
I am not these thoughts.
I am the one experiencing, deep inside, resting in myself, alert, attentive.
Work with this exercise as it serves you for a time. More will be added, later.
Until then, relax and be gentle with yourself.
Love and Blessings and all good wishes for Peace Profound.